TL called me and asked if I would come down to hang out for awhile. I think she could tell I was upset. I said yes, because I really wanted to see her some more. I have managed to spend the last 3 days with her somehow. It felt good to be at the old house last night. I really miss living there, and with her. I hate apartments. Im not sure if Im truly happy about anything in my life right now. I guess I should spend some time thinking about what it is thats making me feel unhappy.
Im 6 months into transition and its going well. At least as far as transition is concerned. I havent had any second thoughts or remissions into guy mode. I am single again, at least in regards with TL, but I have no idea how I would go about meeting anyone new, even if I wanted to. Im torn over that. I feel so lonely, Im really quite an affectionate person, and I miss having someone to share that with. I feel like that part of myself is closing up, like a shell is forming around me.
I dont like it. I need to find a way out.