Time is running out on the lease for MBA. One month left... I am still undecided as to whether I will be moving or not. It depends on the 'terra job' factor and of course the ever present 'will TL want me to move back home?' factor. Myself, I am always wishing she will ask me to move back in with her, but I dont know if she will ever be able to live with me again. I hope and pray, I visualize, I talk to her about it. I wonder what else I can do to help make that a reality. We still spend a lot of time together, and we always have a great time doing things... So I dont know. I miss her so very much. I feel like I will always miss her. It will take me a long time to ever get over it. I cant imagine being with anyone else. I know my chances of ever finding love again are slim to none, and especially to find someone of TLs caliber (Intelligent, beautiful, fun, caring...) is next to, if not impossible. I do at times wish I were not Transgendered, so that I could be with her again and live that life.
No one ever said it was going to be easy. I knew it was going to be extrememly difficult and heart breaking... I just didnt ever want to break her heart. She truly doesnt deserve it.