Chris and heather came by last night, First time visitors at MBA. Terra and I got 'sir'd' a lot and chris kept using my old name. It was tense... heather said my badge picture was unattractive. In fact they didnt really say anything nice to me or Terra come to think of it. I drank half a bottle of wine while they were there on an empty stomach. I didnt feel very good afterwards physically or mentally. I need to let go of my past. I need to get out and meet new people. New people are the best because they usually use the correct pronouns and always my chosen name.